Monday, August 29, 2011

Being Christ-like

I try to be Christ-like and I try to serve others.  But today I find myself needing a change of heart to be more Christ-like.

I wonder how Christ felt about helping people who don't help themselves.  The advantage He had which I don't is that he knew what was in people's hearts.  (But he loved them anyway even if it wasn't right...that is amazing)

Despite my desire to have my husband home doing things on our own home and helping me out, I would never stop him from going and helping another family.  I know they need his help more.  I just was thinking as I was moping how hard it must have been to be Christ and to never get a break and then to suffer for us all.  We are truly blessed to have such a Savior and Brother who loves us that much.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Quality Father Time

This week has been hard on my patience since every night after work my husband has had something going on that has taken him back out of the house in the evening. 
Whether it was back to work for something, a church meeting, or another meeting, he has been able to come home to eat dinner but then has had to leave fairly soon after.  A few nights have been quick meetings but one lasted until after the boys were in bed.
I know that after dinner is usually when I get some time to myself because the kids are playing with dad, even if it only lasts 15 minutes before one of them are back trying to see/help me with what I am doing. 
I try and be supportive but I did finally make a comment last night about him being gone for another night.

I guess that is why the average quality time a father spends with his children is only 30 seconds a day!  This is a true statistic that my husband heard/read about while at work.  To me that is sad.  I can see how it is so little because many fathers don't see their kids everyday, but considering how many fathers now stay at home I would think/hope it would be more.  I am VERY glad that my husband spends much more then that with his kids.  I can tell that not only do I need the 'longer then 30 seconds' father time, but the boys do too.  There is something he can give them that I can't.

My oldest has kind of grown out of it, but my middle child is right at the age that when dad comes home, he stops what he is doing to run over and greet dad, repeating daddy the whole way there.  It is very cute and I don't know any dad that wouldn't love such a warm greeting.

Thankfully it is Friday and we have plans for tonight that will not take my husband away!  We need our quality father time in this house!!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

8 Weeks

I have somewhere around eight weeks left until my baby comes.  There are times when I am ready to have my normal energy and comfortable insides back!  This one is a mover!!  But then I think about having to balance one more person and I tell myself I can wait.  I have always felt they are much easier to take care of on the inside.
I am also not ready to start the few interrupted hours of sleep a night...guess it's is a good thing I have 8 weeks left.  It is funny (in the interesting way) that somehow we do such crazy things (sleep deprive, labor/delivery, intentionally allow something to grow inside us that beats us up, etc) and then repeat them.  Interesting that somehow we manage to get through the tough times and then forget about them (for the most part).  I know that much of the hard parts will be done with prayer and holding to the fact "this too shall pass"...until the next time! 
I am excited to see what this one will look like, what color of hair, will she look like either of the other kids.  They both look like their dad despite the different hair color.  Maybe this one will look like me?  Who knows really!?!
I know that I am in for a whole new learning process, which I will admit sometimes scares me...greatly!  Not only with a new gender, but a whole new season of starting life (ie fall vs spring).  I want to remain laid back and not stress, but I wonder will I.  With this one coming at the start of the RSV and the flu season, rather then the end like the others, it already has me wondering how I can still go out and be active but protect her.  I really enjoyed taking walks with my newborns, having them cuddled close to me, being able to breathe fresh air.  But when it is getting warm rather then getting cold you can do that.  So what will be my break from the house?  All these things that go through my head.  Some trivial, and some genuine things to stop and actually ponder.
I guess in due time I will learn the answers to many of my wondering!